Mar 8, 2014
Jagabo taharey shei din...
Nov 12, 2013
Aaro chai
Tobe tai ki shudhu beche achi?
Ar jedin thakbona?
Shedin ki ar beche thakbona?
Nah.. shey hoy na...
Shey hote parena...
Beche thakar naam jibon noy re..
Shey hoy na..
Shey hotey pare na..
Beche thaka ek chhuto matro..
Tai boli ami chai..
Chai chai hunkaar diye boli ami aaro chai..
Chawa chhara jiboner kono ortho nai..
Sep 9, 2013
Ami toh paani
Boshi achi eka thhaye
Eka ki ami, ami eka nai
Amar opore ushnota boye jaye
Hongsho aji nameni dingaye
Rawmonir opekkhaye
Rawmoni tobu asheni aaji
Amar aanginaye
Ami toh paani, boddho paani
Ami ki jani ortho pranir?
Koto shoto botshorey aaj
Hoyechi prothom rawmoni kaami
Eshechilo shey sheydin raate
Borsha bheja shondhya praate
Honhoniye nupur haathey
Key jaane kar pichu chharatey
Komola ronger sharee poroney
Gothhon taahar bhaari goroner
Modhur chhonde haatar chholey
Muchki muchki hashlo bole
Polokkhoney chhotfotiye chhutte ele
Katha kohoney boshle eshe aamar kachi
Kesh uriye ghaar ghuriye
Aamar bimbey mon juriye
Aamaye shey ki dekhlo naki?
Phishpishiye...
bollo shey ki...
shunbey naki?
Jun 6, 2013
The red spot
Feb 25, 2013
This dream is real!
Feb 14, 2013
Lonely nights
Jan 31, 2013
Song of our soul
Jan 27, 2013
Tears of Emmanouela
Jan 25, 2013
I’m in Troy!
Jan 21, 2013
She lingers…
Jan 3, 2013
Bohnishikha
Krishnor cheyo kaalo
Jotoi kotheen jwala amar
Ei bohnishikhai amar aalo...
Bohnishikha shey toh aapon
Jigai shey ki korbe gopon?
Taar sathe aaj houk alapon...
Jan 1, 2013
I am in Amsterdam
Dec 12, 2012
Dip in a lake
Its freezing tonight
Still i take
A dip in a freezing lake
A lake in moonlight
Has beauty in full
Crystal surface
Shining white with
Silver sparks of
A mighty fight
Invisible creautures
I see who swim beneath
Lure me they allure me
They snarl
In dark
In prussian blue
And goblin red
In colours they swirl
In forms they whirl
Slimy monsters
With lashing tails
Wiggle inside
In between
My toes
Tonight i'm broken
Broken again
There's nothing for you to peek
Not tonight...
Dec 4, 2012
Shey dana meleche
Shey boshlo...
Aapon shure shey
Gaan badhlo koto,
Kathaye kathaye
Katha shonalo shoto,
Aapon mone
Boro holo shey...
Aaj dekhi taharey, shey dana meleche
Taar tuktukey bodoney phul phuteche
Majhe majhe shaada, majhe majhe laal
Majhe majhe shaada-laal shokal bikal...
Shudhu jaante ekhon icche kore
Shey kon babui er bashaaye dhorey?
Kon hawate gaan badhe shey?
Kon shurey tar aakash bhashey?
Kon maati tar nijer aapon?
Kon pahaarey choncholo mon
Jacche ekhon, jokhon tokhon!
Lukaye lukaye din kete jaye
Rukkho mone morubhumi praye
Tobey ei aakasheo tara ra hashe
Chandro ma shey thake aakashe
Tobu chhuitey keno pariney ami
Torey aalingoney jhaaptey dhore
Nijer bukey joriye dhore?
Bol taholey khule amarey
Ki haraley joyi shokoley?
Kon phuley ami shanto hobo?
Kon rongetey mukti pabo?
Nov 26, 2012
If I can see...
The white bright light over the blue black sea
Beyond the horizon of horizons, and even more
Beauty beholds this space and void just before
Where silver dolphins swim, and purple eagles fly
Taanchey maati, bangla amar
Ei kabyo lekha shesh holo na tai...
Nov 22, 2012
A Walk in Barcelona
Nov 19, 2012
Forever, never unseen
Oct 22, 2012
Fake time
Oct 18, 2012
Ektai bhoy
Kauke shukhe dekhar chholey
Kokkhono jeno kere nite na hoy
Tomar mukher hashi...
Hoyto shey din
Pari bhuley jete
Ami tomaye o bhalobashi...
Jarei ami khushi kori,
Jaharei ami hashate pari,
Jar chokh theke jol muchhte pari
Ami taharei bhalobashi...
Asha kori,
Jaha onubhob korchi mora
Prem diye jeno kori...
Jaha ei khhoney dekhchi mora
Prem bhora chokhe dekhi
Jaha ei khhoney shikchi mora
Premer sathe shikhi
Dekhchen tini
Mon diye shey
Shudhai tini...
Katbey kobe?
Toder ei glani?
Kobe hobi mukto tora?
Kobe hobi shokto tora?
Kobe tora shob chere chhure
Nachbi gaibi, hashbi hashabi,
Likbhi toder...
Alapon kahini?
Oct 15, 2012
Oct 14, 2012
Following my sun
And perhaps,
Sun follows another sun!
We us and all,
Are but clay in a doll.
We rise, and we fall,
On a brick wall we crawl.
Yet we move on.
We smile, and we cry,
We go on...
I may live to love...
Following my sun…!
Oct 8, 2012
Chhutir Chhuti
Ruti jutlei bacha jayena!
Aaro koto ki korar ache,
Aaro koto ki bolar ache…
Amar tomar mon joralo,
Aar oder moner katha phuralo?
Eto shohojey?
Shomoy ektu ditey hobe…
Taader sathe boshtey hobe,
Taader kichu boltey hobe...
Uthtey hobe, urtey hobe,
Urtey urtey chhut tey hobe...
Hunkar diye koitey hobe,
Aar chhuti noy, ar chhuti noy, ar chhuti noy!
Sep 10, 2012
World of wonders
Sep 9, 2012
Here, I am mine
Sep 8, 2012
Its midnight, and the evening has just started
Aug 31, 2012
An Ode to Pain...
I am talking to my pain now, not you. Pain is alluring me again to the mysterious depths of longing. She was there with me when no one was. She is in motion now, moving in slow swirls preparing for a dance again. I can see her. Her eyes with a sparkle of her glisten, moistens with salt when she looks at me. She is calling me with her arms wide open, her heart pounding to the drums. I can hear them. Hear them beat the drums in rhythm, as if harking all those angels with naked wings and red robes invisible, to dance with her. I can see them coming now. Red they wear, you can't see? You're not meant to. She is mine, only and only mine.
Aug 9, 2012
Chai je tomaye
Dekha hobe, dekha hobe
Taar sathe mor dekha hobe
Phiriye dite shey parbena
Rinijhini rinijhini,
Borsha bheja gaale thoth chepe tumi,
Heshechile, ar hashbe na?
Aj dirgho bashona shei
Eshe misheche ekaki hoyei
Pher bhul kore jeno phelona
Dakchi ami raat rajani, o rajani
Jeno chaad nishithe aro ramoni
Bolo meghe dheke ar thakbe na
Ami jani ami jani
Jotoi byatha dhore rakho tumi
Muchhe dite more parbena
Ogo tani, amar tani
Amar buker tukro khani
Jeno tumi, ey praan tore harabe na
II
Aj mileche misheche agni hawaye
Tore dekhar tarona amaye kadaye
Dekhbo tore chai dekhtey
Chinbo tore abar kore
Korish mana korbi ki ar?
Jani thakbi boshe nodir o paar
Tai jhap dilem aj nodir buke
Hathre sathre chokhe rekhe toke
Chaichi bodh hoye, tohar ek paloker bondhuta
Rosheboshe bhora nomro-bihara, tushto deher ardrota...
Dekho amare ekbar cheye mon juriye
Ami tomari aru bhinno nohe, hush chariye
Jhaapte dhore premer bhasha tomari kache shikhechi
Buke dhore niye bhalobasha prothom tomari buke rekhechi
Snigdho chetoney nogno bodoney chondoney chhobi ekechi
Bakey bakey koto moner phake shecchaye sriti bunechi
Bhultey kobhu parbiney tui, jotoi bhuli na ami
Tore kole kore niye aalingon kemon shukher jani
III
Shei mon matano koishor prem, aaj o shopne dhore
Dukkho kichu rakhini mone, tao je mone pore
Shey shob katha thakre ekhon
Aj duruduru mon jokhon tokhon
Lafiye othey pagla hawaye
Tapto chetan choncholotae
Shoyone shoyone bilokkhone nash holo koto shomoy
Unmadonaye aj mon taronaye, dekh domka hawa boye
Hawaye bhashe jonakir paal, akasher tara shudhaye
Hobe ki naki milon aji? Koi geli tora kothaye...?
Baare baare tai bolchi tomaye
Tej toroni aj tibro taronaye
Trishna toruni ar tej dhore nai
Bolei pheli, adbhut shundor dekhte tomaye!
Tomar phutphute hashi amar hridoy juraye
Ami boli shono ogo, kemon shonaye?
Dekhle tomaye, boltei hoye
Abar kore chai je tomaye!
Jul 18, 2012
The Magic Dice
Scene 1: Three friends sitting around a garden table are playing a game of dice.
Scene 2: One of the friends look perturbed as she exclaims, “How come we are not winning any rounds today and you are taking all the hands Wasim? What’s your secret?”
Scene 3: Wasim smiles, looks at her and says, “It’s all in your mind. What you believe is what you manifest. There’s no other secret to it Ely.”
Scene 4: Yousuf, the third friend looks at Wasim with a cunning smile, then looks at Ely and says, “Let’s play the next round and see. Place your bets.”
Scene 5: He puts a fifty on the table and says, “This is my last 50. On 5.”
Scene 6: Ely puts a ten on the table and says, “This is all I have. On 2.”
Scene 7: “A hundred from me on 6”, Wasim says putting in the 100 and rolls the dice.
Scene 8: The dice rolls on to the table and stops. [cut to] Wasim exclaims “Yesss!” in the background and starts gathering all the money with both hands. [cut to][Camera close-up on the dice] It’s a blank dice. There are no numbers on the dice on any side. [fade out]
Scene 9: [Black screen] Wasim’s voice whispers softly, “My friend, the game is in your mind.”
Jun 15, 2012
Fight me
Fight me, fight me, fight me right.
Promise me love,
You will put an end to this fright.
You play no games,
You say no names!
Yet, you nor me is breathing, who?
See one among us is freezing too!
I love this scent of mighty chaos!
Love your dreams, love your kind,
Your full and silky satin behind…
I love you my angry mind!
May 17, 2012
Ami ashbo...
toliye kokhono jabo na...
Ami ashbo, phire phire, baare baare
ami ashbo, tomari mone...
May 16, 2012
Ami eka nai
Hridoyer koto khela...
Nachite nachite ghurni hawa ey
Kete jaye koto bela...
Shopno mor shopno thakibe
Chokhe nai kono jol
Hashite hashite kete jabe khhon
Ar ki chawar bol?
Dui jone mora eki buke tthai
Shitey shorote sathe thaki tai
Pagol hawa ey matiye berai
Bajna bajiye shur diye gaai
Ami boli tai
Chol hath dhore gaai
Morey nachai kadai
Taader hashai...
Eki katha bole haaki shodai...
Ami eka nai, ami eka nai, ami eka nai...
Apr 19, 2012
Metamorphosis
She smiled, like the way she always does - it makes me free, liberated, like there's nothing more to worry about. And she said, "When you will be able to surrender, the word dependence will have no meaning at all."
She kissed my lips one more time, and then she left. It took me one whole day to realize what came out of her mouth. This moment I have surrendered. I feel it. I know it has begun. I know why we have not fallen apart till now. She was sent for me, I knew it but I could not surrender. She came to me so that I could surrender, to her.
"However talented a person you might be, you will never be able to reach your true potential if you do not surrender yourself completely, to your guru."
I used to tell everyone about it. I felt the truth in these words. I could smell the essence of it, but could never taste it myself. I was not ready. This 'I' had been just a made up mask, to put up for all those who wanted to see, or for all those whom I wanted to show. I knew it doesn't make any difference to me, whether they saw or not, who saw and who didn't, I knew. But 'I' was just this false ego, not real, a mirage. Maybe it still is. But today, I have gathered enough courage to face this mirage, this blasphemy on my existence, and write it down, so that I can read it again and again and again, till the day I can. Today I do feel what I am - nothing.
She is my guru. I accept it, and hereby I have surrendered unto her. And with a smile I say, it is not the final step but surely the first!
She saw a dream. It was very very vivid, that's what she said. At first she said she didn't know what to make out of it. But moments later, she said she knew exactly what it meant, which shall remain a secret buried deep inside her heart.
Ranjini, Sayantani and Kamalini - they were three sisters. Sayantani was her friend in school, and she used to love the courtyard in their house. She sees herself standing there, and a little girl is playing in front. She walks to her and asks her name. The little girl says, "My name is Ritopriyo". She is still in her own world playing with herself, and she looks like the little girl in the Persian film "Mirror".
Krishnakali, although having reasons enough to be startled and surprised, doesn't seem perturbed at all. There's a staircase going up from the courtyard which she starts climbing. She sees me coming down, and she tells me about the little girl downstairs whose name is Ritopriyo. I don't look surprised either. I come down the stairs looking for her. When I meet her, she is reluctant to talk to me or even face me. She asks, "Who are you?"
She is smart, she is intelligent. And I start asking her a few questions. She shoots back instantly, answers all my questions with another question that makes me ponder. She is at ease, though I know that she doesn't like me much. And then,
"Make love with your mother", she whispers.
I hope he understands, yes he does. I am the little girl, not him.
I am preparing to sleep now. A strange gust of wind enters my windows and takes off the ox clock. It takes off my right hand, the basket on my head, and a horn from the ox head.
It is enough for me to understand that the time has come. She has come, it is time for me to make love with my mother. I surrender me unto you....
Feb 15, 2012
Icche
Kokhono ba icche hoy doriya ey dil boiye ditey
Kokhono kokhono icche hoy premiker prem hotey
Kokhono ba icche hoy ek brihot shudhu shunyo hotey
Kokhono kokhono icche hoy dhonno dhyane byom hotey
Kokhono ba icche hoy pagol nritye motto hotey
Ar kokhono, matro ek prokanda brikkho kando hotey
Koto koto icche kokhon kokhon
Jhilik mare jokhon tokhon
Ar ami dubi oi sagorer dheu er moton
Achhar kheye bichar peye
Mucche dite icche kore
Amar naam...
Jate keu na amaye chinte pare
Jan 26, 2012
Khhoma
Ekbar bol shei, shei hoy tor
Ayna tor aj nei, nei aj tor
Ache porey jhhuro kaache mukh chapa,
Ar buk phata khhoma...
Tobe khhoma keno chahibo ami?
Khhoma chaye oi paaper kami
Chahibo ki janish ami?
Tore kole kore dhore,
Geet gaitey jibon bhore
Shudhu gaan noy, jibon, jatra koto ki...
Tobe jobe hashi phute maan ey mor, jani
Hobo paar nodi, tori tor, mani tai aaj e
Mor roktey likhlam ami, tor naam.
Jan 25, 2012
It does not finish
Love no more now...
Tis' my misery
That drowns me to tears...
Blue tears messed with black ink,
Swirling lines of no symmetry
Keep whirling in random frenzy.
Random, is it? Or is it not?
Today we celebrate!
That's how dawn began.
Red oozed out of every pore
Of our tender skin...
Soft, supple, serene...
That's how I had felt, not now
Then, when my eyes woke to new rays
Of a new year, our third...
Turned down! I am.
Disgusted
Ephemeral bitterness.
That look daunts me,
Says, 'I don't care, or whatever'
I scream. And thorns, they creep
Inside my neck, my throat
Helpless I am, I cry
I speak, my voice is broken
Broken words, broken dreams
Broken...
Broken broken broken.
I am, for what?
For her not looking,
Searching, stealing, or whatever
From my eyes tonight.
Ma! whispers a voice from far.
Says 'say', urges me, she pushes me
A teardrop makes a heart too heavy
She chuckles with the few words
To love her only and only son.
She is timid at best, I 'prehend.
For the foxes that howl, and growl
Make her tremble tonight.
This day I am blue.
The blue pot
Is on hold still...
It does not finish.
Nov 8, 2011
Rehai
Ey morichika samajer ghuranto chakre
Hariye phelecho tumi tomar nijeke,
Hariye phelecho jibon, ek nishphol abegey
Bhulecho tumi jibito!
Ei paaper prayoschitto hobe tomar amari haate
Pashan bhora shudhu eet ar pathore,
Rehai pabe na tumi amar sathe
Nah, rehai tomaye dilam na!
Oct 26, 2011
Kalir Khhob
Protidin dhup, joba, ar chandan ey
Bondona koriya pujli jaharey
Aj shey chokkhur shamne ele abotarey
Dakliney tobu tui ghore taharey?
Je biswas ache tor chhata chhobir upore
Shey biswas nai tohar atmar upore?
Oct 20, 2011
Ekhon tumio shunyo
Menechi ami tomare
Bhangsi kopal deoal thukrey thukrey
Maati deoaler chitkey chitkey pore
Shei shukno maatir tukro haatey
Ar makha maati kopal maathey
Cholechi hete bhikhari pothey
Dhormer chakro tobey taanche morey
Ghaar ta dhore ghuriye ghuriye
Tobei tomaye shudhai tobey
Amar shaathe ki mon jurabey?
Bolo taholey
Chitkaar kore bolo tobey
Emon bhabey, jeno mon o pran o shuntey parey
Maatir gondhey modhur gondho
Lukiye lukiye daakche amaye
Taanchey amaye tomar theke duurey
Shorke shorke horke giye pori ami maati tei
Bhalobasha je emon pagol hobe
Jantem ki ar goto kaale?
Tobu shob chhere cheyechi ami tomare
Pora kopal amar
Je cheyechi ami tomare
Chawa pawa mishe giyeche
Jeno ghola jole maati tey
Swacchota ar nei kothao
Mone, praane bone badarey
Hariyeche shunyotar majhe
Shunyo shunyo shob e shunyo
Bhabini boibe hawa eto tibro jhore
Dhudhu mon moru prante eka ami
Dekhini karu chaya ekhane
Hau hau kore ghurni hawa kaade
Chai je koto chutte tumi ashbe
Icche je shei prokashye noy, gopon hoyei thakbe
Hridoyke ke jeno nigrey nicche
Nigrey nicchrey mucchrey dicche
Joto hobe toto hok, aaro hok
Joto pyache chhire porche, aaro jeno mone shwosti hocche
Bhuliye dao, dio na abar
Monke boli bhule jao
Khhoniker jonno urey jao
Bhalobashar ei daan jodi jantam
Kete chhirey kobe kheye pheltam
Phul dilam, dul dilam
Chokhe tomar kajol dilam
Dile ki tumi?
Diyecho bujhi?
Tobe bodh hoy niyecho oneyk beshi
Dewa newar hishab
Tomar sathe noy
Shey shob amar saha poribaare hoy
Tobe thakchi to ami shei deoalei
Parcho ki tumi rakhtey amaye tamo-heyalei?
Bibhishika tumi, dhikkar kore boli ami
Ratno ek, jatno ar-ek...
Khhone khhone krome kromey
Nishwas mor ruddho hoye ashe
Bekheyal ey thakte chaye mon
Edik odik ghure beriye
Kothaye shey tar thikana paye
Bole na keu shudhu hashe
Rakkhosh konthe shudhu atto hashi hashe
Shopne ami dekhechi amar maa ke pagol hote
Mon pran dewa guru jone der
Amaye niye hashi thatta korte
Hashuk tara shoibo ami
Tobe januk tara
Ey amar kaj noy
Amar kaj ami korbo
Aj dekhechi ratri belae
Amar prothom guru shorone
Esheche shey dhore hath maaer
Amare tuley dhoroner
Jonyo, niye je shey jete chaye
Shei thatta hashir doler kache amaye
Dekhate shey chaye tader, amar shopno
Ami tomari hey matongini
Jotoi katha di shonani
Keu toh jaane koto khani
Chepe dhore rakha jaaye
Mon pran o deher kaaye
Keu toh jaane je ritoh ei
Tomari hath dhore shey haat tey chaye
Khhoma koro ar bolina ami
Bolle koto jhamela jani
Nishwo ami, tatei bishwo amar
Ta chhara, amar bhitor shudhu shunyota
Shunyo kaaye shunyo klesh
Shunyo bayu shunyo besh
Ekhon tumio shunyo
Tai toh anubhob korte pari
Shuntey pari dekhte pari
Laal sada kalo bujhte pari
Likhte pari bolte pari
Jiboner gaan gaitey pari
Aaktey pari gortey pari
Phurti tey aj ami urtey pari...
Sep 3, 2011
Va.Ra.Na.Si.
'Knot' so much to worry
Farewell this time, long old friends
Fly to me when time comes again.
Fly with no fury, to wonder for a while.
Fly so free, so I may see
This fanciful feast, once at ease.
Bulls in a wrestle, in a
Big hungry bustle, tight in a tussle,
Voraciously howl to a thuddle-thud-thump.
Where silence does not measure
Loudness or softness, in empty gallon cans.
This silence breathes,
A deep yellow east.
Vasun-dhara-krishna-sindura
All flow through in one river of love
This sweet aroma, to breathe
Of life in sweat and glory.
This moment in time, we celebrate
In rapturous hues of fussy-dizzy-hazy
Still screaming unheard! Va.Ra.Na.Si.
Jun 19, 2011
Mateura
Don't you want to know,
Where your son wants to lie?
In a lap? In a wrap?
In a red cozy cushion trap?
Or those leaves, with the wind they cry
Out for some space whispering...
Mateura Mateura
Don't you want to see,
Where your son flies free?
Through the break of a brook,
And rustle of the breeze,
The flutter tailed grey bird
Glides at ease, shivering...
Mateura Mateura
Don't you want to be,
Where your son stays in glee?
Across canopies of pine, in green serene
Among apples and peaches and plums pretty purple
While a white giant from the distance, stares at me
Gleaming, ...glistening, ...listening
May 6, 2011
Bitters
This bitternes we'll forget.
We have a life too big to live,
It's big big bigger than what we get!
Bitterness is fine
For us to go on and find
The reason for us to stay
This very same way, and never while away...
When we open our eyes wide enough,
We see chaste love within!
So decide in haste if you may,
But if you follow your heart, I know you'll say
This stupid foolish bitterness
Tis' nothing nothing, not today...
Apr 18, 2011
Bolo tumi ke?
Shudhui tomarey dekhitey dekhitey...
Aaj, khuje nahi pai tomarey
Lukiye tumi acho hey kotha?
Kaane kaane shudhu shuni shey katha
Tumi bolo tobey,
Rekhecho ki tumi e, lukiye morey?
Hai hotobhaga tui! khujish karey?
Bolchi ami pabiney taarey
Kanna dhore chokher dharey
Rekhechish taar mon aadharey
Tobu, chepe rakha kon ondhokarey
Taanche torey chhayar twarey
Dakche torey mayar bhore
Kaadchey torey jhaapte dhore...
Janish ki tui? ey kanna pore
Ondho je tui aalo aadharey
Bikel pore, noyoner ek mridu aadoley
Dekhi tomarey, tobu nao shey tumi
Chitkaar kore bolo tobey...
Tumi ke? tumi ke? tumi ke?
Mar 14, 2011
The swing
And all they show
Is what they have made
None what you can make
I am here now, wide awake
To tell you the truth!
So they give me a taste of their juice
Mixed by men monotoned...
And I doze
Like you and those
Who knows, why
They crave to remain
Here, where lies nothing
But sand, but a tide to learn...
That's all, and just the swing.
Jan 7, 2011
Vixen, her name
Fear you fowl!
Fear her howl...
Juicy fangs to clench
My flesh...
My pace I know
Is dragging low...
In a stealing glance
From the opening...
I can see... I can see... I can see...
A rocket on a payroll
Is chasing me...
A hippo in humble cheese 'n' spice
Is flippering flabbering love in dice...
My dove she's gone, flown a-lone...
Vixen, her name now...
With wings she's raging!
She's chasing, she's caging,
Flinching and screeching!
Green blood, her whim
Is screaming screaming screaming!
Dec 30, 2010
Hobey!
Hobey ki na hobey?
Shotti hobey na mithye hobey?
Hobey toh hole kobe hobey?
Aj hobey na kal hobey?
Holeo ba ar ki je hobey?
Ei proshno khelar shesh kobey?
Bhabcho tumi ar ki hobey...
Ar ki hobey bolle hobey?
Shoitey hobey, koitey hobey
Boltey hobey hobei hobey!
Bolo ki chai, tai hobey
Tumi jodi chao tobei hobey
Thik kore shudhu chaitey hobey
Aj hobe noy kaal hobey
Hobar holey hobei hobey!
Megh ashley brishti hobey
Borsha holei shoshyo hobey
Biye holey shishu hobey
Shishu holei shey boro hobey
Churi korley dholai hobey
Dholai holei kanna pabey
Gai kaatley dhormo jabey
Dhormo gelei maan harabey
Ei poth holo shuru shobey
Aaro koto poth choltey hobey
Shomoy er shaathey chhut tey hobey
Chhut tey holey portey hobey
Portey holey uthtey hobey
Uthtey uthtey urtey hobey
Shoitey hobey, koitey hobey
Hobei hobey, hobei hobey!
Dec 21, 2010
Him and his remains
Even if she doesn't know that she is set to be free before him, I know it. He has to stay. For some more time. Alone.
Symphony she shows. She is supposed to go happy. Because that's all she knows. That's the only way she knows. Harmony.
The tide is breaking down the walls of named wisdom. Its smooth and slow. As if there is no pain. Years, and aeons, and moments, they look the same. They slash. And smoothen the surface. Of those walls so fluently carved and crafted when made. Every lash he tries to stand strong. And slips. And slips. And slips. By now, he must have learnt to slip well, on the smoothness of once dreamt of inglorious palace walls. Lonely as it stills now. It stills. Still.
No one stays there now. Only Him. Him and his remains. And everyone else is gone now. Even her.
Dec 1, 2010
Ei Ami
Like lines that don't rhyme, yet sound like poem...
This is me. Ei ami.
Nov 29, 2010
Maan harano
Tomarey ami maan boli
Maan haraley,
Kotha jai ami?
Sheydin guru ghono megh daakey,
Aar mora boshey alokkhoney.
Giyechilam shudhu jharna dekhtey.
Chhilona shey jharna,
Chhilo shudhu aprostut ek barnona.
Shey barnona mele na go roj kaaley,
Kali barnona boli ami...
Kamponey jhakiya othey
Sharbo shorir aajo,
Jodi bhabi shei khhon.
Bhabiney kokhhono bhabiney
Ei amar siddhi, tai
Ei amar bidhi,
Tumi.
Aug 5, 2010
Aata gaache tota pakhi
Ektu tok ektu mishti,
Majhe majhe alpo kheyal.
Bodh hocche rajar phal khacchi.
Maane phul-phal, haan shei phal.
Bole take aanta.
Hashi pele kichu korar nei,
Naamtai tai.
Ja bolchilam ta holo,
Er shwaad o shourabh,
Thik je rokom jibhe theke
Allad kore,
Bodh kori ami ei muhurtey
Amar nijer astityo hariye
Sheti pran diye anubhab korchi.
Korte korte,
Bekheyale
Ashey,
Je khacche taar chhobi.
Shey ek porajito raja.
Shey raja karur noy.
Shudhu taar nijer.
Shey taar nijer raja.
Shey raja hoyeche
Taar nijer kheyale,
Nijo heyale.
Shey bhebechilo shey parbe.
Shey bhebechilo shey dewal dhore uthbe
Shey bhebechilo shey ekdin raja hobe.
Nijer i kheyale,
Aaj shey raja hoyeche.
Aata! Aaha Aata!
Tomar srishti taar i jonyo!
Tomar je rosh, antarer kosh,
Ki bhabei ba boli?
Ki bhabei ba likhi?
Banglaye,
Ami ashikkhito.
Maa kali bolchi!
Bangla bhashaye hardly porechi
Haatey gona koyekta bangla galpo,
Ar paaye gona koyekta bangla kobita.
Byas, amar dour oto tukui...
Shada table cloth,
Baati amar,
Rang taar
Shada.
Ar taar modhye
Kowa kowa aata.
Aboshyoi khola
Kowa kota chorano,
Ar amar hathe chamuch!
Chhoto, beshi boro noy
Naam tar teaspoon.
Ar mukhe ekti matro taaja kowa
Ar taar rosh...
Maane juice... strange juice!
Nah, erokomti ar hoyna...
Biswa jora ar onyo kono phal nei
Je er kachakachi o ashtey parey.
Er ek adbhut nabhi,
Er ek alada bhasha.
Chhowaye,
Gondhey,
Amar naritey
Dheuer moto,
Kampan diye choleche.
Proti kaamorey,
Proti mochorey,
Bodh hocche,
Protiti kowa ek bochhor dhore khacchi.
Mishti mukh diye shuru,
Ar ek kochlatey,
Ey pith theke o pith,
Jibher shiraye halka tok.
Ar amar mukhe photey
Chotto hashi.
Tushki hashi, ektu byaka.
Ar shei hashitei guri guri koto
Mishti lebu daana.
Jokhon maritey maritey
Makha makhi daatey
Guri guri koto daana,
Ek ashamanyo chinikrito ghorshon chhara kichu
Anubhob kora maana.
Aaj raja abhibhuto!
Ei nondoniyo abhigyotaye
Aaj raja rajokiyo!
Aaj ey aata atuloniyo!
Aaro 99 ta lobhoniyo kowa
Amar dike takiye ache shada baati theke.
Aata shey hashe, ar tota rajar gaaley aaro ek gaal hashi ashe.
Jul 6, 2010
Dying to Dawn...
In the wilderness,
Of this wide wild world,
And this wide wild sea;
I so want to be.
Let’s run to the sky now,
And let the skylark sing.
The fire is blue now,
And red is the sting;
Let’s run to the sky now
For the dusk is long gone,
And the sun sleeps in cold.
Hear me tears now, that I’m crying to dawn…
Jul 1, 2010
Nine-less-stanzas
I can just see... small tiny insignificant movements in my thumb tips... with the nails on it... typing some rememberless words and dots...
A faint cry of Jeremy from as far as somewhere inside the seventh bone of my spine shuddering me with a silver shine of shiver... That's enough, and all... nothing else... can I breathe... or even smell... like you always do... Black is your name... nothing now.
I am seriously and fucking swear on seriously going through a goliath ordeal of strangeful painlessness... Body-less-ness... You can never know how painful it is to be void of any pain... Right now at this point of time I cannot feel my tongue... it's serious and dead... and my voice... fingertips... I don't feel touch... sense... lost... I'm listening to some sex style of some Astrix... I can't say how hard and so real hard I'm biting my tongue to even feel the slightest feather of it... Someone's screeching... in a peculiarity... a strange strangle... in a beat... up and low... smooth as a wave... a phosphorous laced crest like the gown of Desdemona... the wave of electrons... and blue light... and white streaks... all kinds of streaks... just without life... not even a streak of green... of life... something so simple spelled out like life...
Lifelost... like I feel I am... now... have become... became... a little while ago... I smoked... She rolled the hashish... Honey sting butterfly... her name... Shit... these lights... are they lights? they're glowing... like halo bright yellow daisies in an animation film... The letters you...! The letters you're writing...! Can't you really see? Yes... there are lights.... how they are glowing...! as hazy as those fireflies in the dusk-sheltered meadows searching for some space to grow old... It's up again... it's taking you there... Me am towards in a screech of hollow... but I can't feel myself... I'm just travelling... in speed... in streaks... in the flow of liquid electrons zilac in colour... I still can't feel my tongue... and it's dancing on... in thumps... the steel wave of liquid electrons... Tiesto it feels... I realize my legs are fluttering... not like the feathers of a cold wet sparrow... much slower... in a beat or an ebb... with the wave... Shit... I trust, swear me... I am not on acid... iamlike... am I? These letters are glowing again... like fireflies in dusk...
You must have been out of your head... You are... Can you feel the zeal in your crotch? Yes I'm feeling it... It's taking me away... it's dropping me... like a free fall... like near a distant star...! Difficult to say or know if its the wind or just the breeze... and yes didn't I say that I am inside an intermittently speeding auto rickshaw...? I must have been high... must I am fucking numb... And don't you dare ask what's the difference...? It is... it's different today... it's outer space... it's differently a lot... totally never before... nothing feels familiar... because I can't feel nothing... not even my tongue... The zeal is taking through...
The zeal is taking through... and the station is arriving... I feel a knock on my forehead like the knock of... fuck it... liar liar... I'm screaming... through every pore... of my self... you can't see... you can't... you...
Things are seeming normal now... A familiar voice of Young is singing a low note... and I can swear he doesn't scream... he can't... I think I'm starting to feel sweat again... I think I can't say what... I want to see the sun now... I lift my eyes to see the sky... and I see... dusk has kissed goodbye...
It's time it's over... it's time for home now... I'm going home now... rolling the stones... returning to soft... as solitude... and I will remember me... in this time.
Dance of Life
As she was playing with me. It was her wish.
She wanted me to know.
I was shivering. My teeth chattering.
Waiting for the rain to go. I said its okay.
But it wasn't yet time.
What is wrong with you? I asked.
Almost shrieked. Trying to hold myself in my senses.
She just smiled. And glistened. In the rain.
I walked for shelter. Asked her to follow.
I ran. Into the warehouse. Waiting.
Red roof. White door. Empty.
The door was open. I stepped inside.
And I thought I am dying. I was.
Numb. Nothing. Blank.
She had made it. Brought the thunder.
And struck upon me. Lightning.
Hair flying wet, there she danced.
Jun 30, 2010
Misery
Of this misery I'm going through...
Is she running away...?
First I felt it...
In my skin slowly growing a sting...
And I wonder
Where she ran away...
Apr 23, 2010
The Stone Rhyme
This crime I’ve committed now so a-many time;
Singing stories of blue and yellow in dozens for a dime.
See honey-sting butterflies play war in my mind.
They struggle and they wiggle,
And they tickle your brain.
They keep coming like fire,
Over again and over again.
They chain you they pain you,
They cry you in vain.
They grain you they stain you,
They make you insane.
Stoning and blooming are mere forces of nature,
Stoners and flowers look all the same.
Forgiving is a sin in a world of sinners.
Oh sinner, say sinner, who is to blame?
I see foolish people all around,
Doing stupid foolish things.
In a stage of stupid eunuchs,
Clapping their foolish wings.
So I’d like to take a walk now,
In the valley of green.
Where dewdrops sparkle all around,
In my dreams I’ve seen.
So I huff, then I puff, and
I sing the stone rhyme.
I know, this crime I’ve committed
Now, so a-many time.
Apr 14, 2010
My mirror forever
When I want to see myself...
As always...
I see myself when I see you...
You are, and you will be...
My mirror...
Forever... Its true.
Mar 31, 2010
Shesh pala?
Baaje shaarey chartey...
Shaarey pachta, shaarey chhota...
Shaarey shaat ta, shaarey aat ta...
Aj krishnokolir shondhaye neelchey dupurbela
Krishnokoli tobe tumi keno eshechiley?
Krishnokoli britha tumi brithaye heshechiley...
Krishnokoli tomar paane bare bare cheyechi
Krishnokoli tomar kole trishanti peyechi...
Shopner chador aaji dhekeche amarey
Eke eke jaye ashe
Torey torey, storey storey
Dheu ey bheshe mile mishe
Baare baare jhonkaar ey
Guru guru megh daake
Ar kono ek neel chador er phakey
Shono krishnokoli haake
Shuntey ki pao tumi? Shuncho ki taake?
Mar 12, 2010
Sweet Virus!
And it looks like
Metal, golden gold metal...
I hear,
And it sounds like
Battle! A-Clang! Steel! Rattle!
Virus! You! You make me unsettle...
So I thought,
Was a fool I was?
And I brought,
My mind to a pause...
Then I caught,
My heart bleed words...
I ask and I rot,
Am I the one that was?
Scream! I hear you, your mellifluous beat.
I promise I'll take you to the rain-washed street!
Enchant me O dear O my Darling Dark!
Sing me your song and I shall hark...
Show me the trails of your honey scent crawlers,
Scream! You sweet virus! Spray me your colors,
Spray me your colors,
Spray me your colors...
Even if you forget me...
‘Cos I thought I'm reading my mind....
I loved,
‘Cos I felt love when I am so loved...
And I shall
Love,
Till the day you remember…
A faint saint glimpse
Of my face,
Of my black and my white...
Dusk after day after dawn after night,
Love will grow...
It has to grow,
Like a snail so slow...
In time it'll show…
And then I shall know,
That you have loved me…
Forever,
And forever you will...
Even if you forget me,
You'll love me still, I know you will.
Mar 7, 2010
I will...
Hold your heart to the sun, I will.
I will burn, I will…
Burn my lips to a kiss, a kiss I will.
Like air loveth flare, the fire you’ll feel…
Like pink petal lotus,
Snow shelter I will…
You will feel, you will…
If you don’t, I will.
I will love, I will…
If I don’t, be still, be still, be still…
Shiver not, be still until
You feel loved, you will…
If you don’t, I will…
Forever and still, till death can kill.
If you say you love me, say will you kiss me?
Like the sun kissed ray…
Like a moon missed day…
Say will you stay? Just the same way?
Nay, if I may, let me shout and say…
Let me shout and say, I will, I will, I will…
Feb 3, 2010
Kiss amiss…
Kiss, amiss…
How could you miss?
Amiss this kiss…
O miss! O miss!
Can you please me kiss?
I wish you kiss, nay kiss amiss…
Jan 1, 2010
I love…
I love.
I love, love, love,
And I love when I’m tired.
I love,
I stand tall and love all.
I am a bad boy, I love.
Dec 20, 2009
Choruibhatir Bhoj
Esho mashi pishi mama jethu, aj choruibhatir bhoj
Khete pele shutey chao, tai machher pashbalish
Phurphure bhaat ey shuru, koro na go nalish
Jhur jhure alu bhaja, ashe jhuri jhuri
Makho makho moog daal ey makha makhi kori
Swadey swadey utshobey, phulkopi koi
Malai kari tey chingri, kore hoichoi
Koshiye pathar mangsho khete boro khatni
Jhal jodi lage, ache alubokhrar chatni
Cheteputey khete khete papor er shathe
Mishti mukh hote hobe rajbhog patey
Hath dhuye mukh muchey, kulfi tey ashi
Paan diye shesh kori, mukh bhore hashi...
Dec 16, 2009
Fly to me...
I’ve been foolish, so foolish to watch you go. And then I’ll be lost, I never did know. Today I know, and I say you’re the one. You are my angel, the one from the sun. I’ve dressed you, and I’ve missed you, and I’ve kissed you in my dream. Can you hear me? O hear me! Do you hear me when I scream?
O Goddess of moon, remember the dreams you have dreamt.
With me, your me, the nights you have spent.
You took me in your arms for an endless time.
Where I’ve rested in peace, in love sublime.
Remember the moment you looked into my eyes.
Like a shining star in the darkest skies.
As I held you so close, so near to my heart.
Our bodies so naked, and our souls entwined.
I still can feel the touch of your skin.
Your hair on my neck, and your breath so warm.
Let me be your only one, see my love, can you see? I’m a bird in chains, I want to fly, love me be, set me free. The time is come now O bluebird, fly my love, fly to me.
Dec 1, 2009
Janoki
Jane ki naki, jane naki shey, janoki tar meye?
Roop kironer, surjo jyoti, teer dhonukey badha
Aj rong beronger phul phuteche, lal nil ar shada...
Nov 26, 2009
Nov 21, 2009
Krishnokoli
Pran krishno bromor koli hridoyre tumi chuyecho
Kesh kajoler, kajol deho, kajol tomar ankhi
Adrishyo tomar aishwarjo, kajole makha makhi
Chokher kaalo bhasha bhasha, jeno moner bhasha koy
Raater tara shudaye morey 'tor kishetey bhoy?'
Byomkiyo na, dhomkiyo na, amarey tumi chomkiyo na
Mrigotrishartho morubhumi te asha nirashar byatha dio na
Rukkho hridoye, shukkho dehey, pranheenotaye bachi
Pran bhromra pran diye jao, urey esho kacha kachi
Hotei hobe tomake amar, shudhu shomoyer anagona
Koto opekkha koto protikkha, ekhono shey ojana
Kaya premer krishno tumi, amari koli hobe
Maya hridoyer chirodini mor krishnokoli robe
Jul 21, 2009
Come Along...
With a whiff of snow jasmine enchanting the air.
Our eyes haven't met yet, but we can see
The long, the lonely wait till eternity.
And the moment she looked into my eyes,
I caught a glimpse of the chameleon skies.
With a splash of rain, and a bolt of thunder,
Somethin' so sweet that made me wonder...
Where on earth has my love all gone?
To be loved like this, left all alone?
For you my you, I've been waiting so long...
So I try to whisper and sing this song...
Let the little bird fly, her mother's long gone...
Now I spread my wings, would you come along...?